Oliver contorts his body to keep from crushing me, thoughtful of me even as I yank him down, and right now it’s easy to focus on him and only him. The dark cloud is there, lingering ominously in the background, but I do my best to lean into this brief moment of sunlight.
“I know you could,” I reply, turning my head to press a long, lingering kiss to his cheek before letting him go so he can get comfortable. I stare at him as he leans over to take off his shoes and think about how much I missed him, even though I just saw him this morning. It makes me uneasy to have him out of my sight, and I know that probably isn’t healthy. I know that I’ll need to contact my therapist and see if I can get back on the books.
I have been putting it off. I had been so confident in ending our sessions, and now it feels like I’m paying for that hubris. But I’ll make myself call her. That will be tomorrow’s goal. Right now I’ll let myself feel relief at having him here by my side.
“Where’d you get the wine?” I ask him, reaching out to pick up the bottle. “It looks nice.”
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Date: 2024-12-11 06:20 am (UTC)“I know you could,” I reply, turning my head to press a long, lingering kiss to his cheek before letting him go so he can get comfortable. I stare at him as he leans over to take off his shoes and think about how much I missed him, even though I just saw him this morning. It makes me uneasy to have him out of my sight, and I know that probably isn’t healthy. I know that I’ll need to contact my therapist and see if I can get back on the books.
I have been putting it off. I had been so confident in ending our sessions, and now it feels like I’m paying for that hubris. But I’ll make myself call her. That will be tomorrow’s goal. Right now I’ll let myself feel relief at having him here by my side.
“Where’d you get the wine?” I ask him, reaching out to pick up the bottle. “It looks nice.”